Life is a test. Whether you pass or fail is up to you.

So I'm not really sure how I didn't just lose the one person I can't live without. I requested something very specific of this individual expecting the best. What I got was this individual's true feelings. Even though something do simple was requested of this individual the results meant the world to me. The results weren't even close to what I've suspected. Now I know my past has screwed up a lot of things for me I should have at least had the right to prove you wrong in my future. If its not time will there ever be the right time? It meant nothing it was a simple request for a simple gift that showed me your true feelings. The simple fact that you showed me you can't get me something that means nothing Showed me that I also meant nothing. If I so disposable to you then why are you still keeping me around? I don't want to be played I do not want to waste my time. I know what I want and what I want is you. Forever everyday all day and nothing else. And if I'm not the same for you then why am I here? We are too old for this so if I'm not what you want then let me go. Life Is too short for second guessing and if that's what your doing then there is no need to be here. I want this. That's all that should matter. The thought was nice an your right I have been requesting that. But what I currently requested had more meaning to it then what you orinally thought congratulations you have just built back up the wall that you worked so hard to tear down. How does it feel to now put a void on this relationship? We're back at square one now and I'm simply hopeful that one day you will learn to love me or even come close to loving me like I love you. After all the greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return. Learn to love me. And learn I'm not the people from your past.

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